A very dear young man pored his hear out tonight for all to see. He laid out all the things he had done and trying to make amends for those transgressions and was met with the back of the person he was trying to reach.
We can’t always fix the things in our past, it would be nice if we could, but sometimes we just can’t. The point is he tried.
I know that too often people who have done us wrong come back and say I’m sorry and then turn around and do something, usually worse, and once again we are left putting the pieces back together. In this case that’s not what is going on. The young man means what he says.
What we all have to remember is that one day we will all be gone and once we are there is no making amends. You can’t go back and say I’m sorry because the other person is gone and your pleas will fall on not only deaf ears but dead ones. You will never had the opportunity to know whether or not you could have fixed things between you and too often we don’t realize this until it’s too late. Right now you think it’s OK to leave things as they are because you know that other person is still there should you ever change your mind. That’s not always going to be the case.
I have four people I wish I could say something to but now that can never happen. One is my mother, one is a brother, one is my father, and one is my son. That last one hurts me most of all. It isn’t important how, when, or when, it just is.
For all four I would give anything to be able to say I love you but I would also like to tell them that for any harm I ever brought any of them, I’m so very sorry. It was never intentional and in some cases it what I thought was best at the time. They are all gone now and I will never have that opportunity to try if not make it right at least they would all know they were loved, and still are, but nothing I ever did was done out of meanness or spite.
With what happened to the young man I was talking about earlier he took a wrong path and has been doing everything he can to set himself right. How far could his brother’s love go to help him achieve that goal? Whatever mistakes this young man made are on him and no one else and he isn’t trying to lay them at the door of another. He simply wanted a chance to try and set of the things he had done in the past. So to the brother of this young man I say to you. Don’t let this pass you by. One day you will look back on it and you will regret it far more than you can ever imagine. When that day comes and you haven’t reached out that hand to your brother I sincerely hope there is someone there for you who can help you through the pain I know you are ultimately going to suffer, and you will suffer.
May God bless you and help you find the heart to forgive. No one is asking you to forget, just forgiveness and move forward into something that could hold far more for you than you ever thought possible.
You see I happen to think the world of that brother of yours. He’s been my rock on many occasions. I would proudly call him my son.
I know you don’t know me from Adam but I know your brother and if there is any of him in you then I pray you find a way to forgive your brother because I don’t want you to feel the pain I have had to endure.
God bless you my boy and may he help you to find it in your heart to forgive your brother.
I went to see my cardiologist for a follow up visit on Thursday wanting to put a cork in the bottle regarding whether or not I was having issues with my heart. I’m not by the way or at least nothing to be real concerned about at my age and the bad news for the world is that he has told me I should be around another thirty years are so. Yea for me and sorry for the rest of the world.
When asking the few final questions one of them was ‘are you having nightmares’ and then to my surprise throwing out a rather gruesome scenario for one. I responded that’s not a nightmare that’s a reason for me to jump up and start writing and that makes happy. Well the doctor’s scenario has been rolling around in my head, pun intended, ever since he popped out with it. Yes I’m going to write the story but I don’t think that he would have expected that and certainly not the way it rolled out, yes that’s another pun.
My surprise, although why it should have been because of what this doctor is, when this came rolling out of his mouth damn near made me fall off the examining table.
Let’s get something straight here, as a rule I hate doctors. There are a few that I have either met or been treated by that hold places in my heart and this awesome man is one of them. That this man is one of the top in field is an understatement and I have known him professionally for many, many years. He is an unbelievable doctor. No as for his bedside manner, you couldn’t ask for a more caring and compassionate person to treat you. He is going to do his best to reassure you and put you at ease. Yes I know it sounds like this is a review for his medical practice or even that I might have a crush on this adorable human being. My daughter if made that statement before she had to go see him recently and then she met him. She walked out and turned to me, yes I was with her, and said “I get it. He really is everything you say he is and all you’re doing is stating the facts.”
The rest of the story is what makes the rest of this rhetoric important. This dear wonderful professional, and he is most certainly that, always presents himself as such in his appearance and mannerisms. He reminds me of a courtly gentleman from days gone past. The way he presents his arm to a lady to walk her to the exit. Don’t get me wrong I’ve seen him walk the men to the exit he just doesn’t offer his arm. He shakes their hands and or pats them on the shoulder giving them parting words of encouragement and praise. He always has a kind word for anyone he meets no matter where it is or what time it is. Believe me I know. I’ve run into this doctor all hours of the night at the hospital and on so very many occasions. Some time ago I was at the hospital all night for years because of first my mom and then my husband’s. That’s how I met the man the first time, he was my deceased mother-in-law’s cardiologist. As it turned out I was always the one to take her to all her doctors appoints no matter who the doctor was. He is always perfectly put together with not a hair out of place. No it isn’t vanity, just how he is. I can tell you this, he does inspire you to take care of yourself and without verbally slapping you around but instead uses kindness.
That why when he popped out with the scenario he did I found it so funny. You just wouldn’t expect it from him.
Any I have a story to write now before I post this.
There Will Be More
The woman running down the hill stopped suddenly as she heard her husband scream out behind her.
“No!” The resounding high pitched sound of her husband’s voice breaking through the night was enough to give anyone chills in spite of the oppressive heat that permeated the night.
She turned to see the taboo of her husband and the man standing in front of him silhouetted by the large bright full moon behind them. The image reminded her of some cartoonish sight from an old movie scene. She watched as the ax swung through the night air making contact with the side of her husband’s neck slicing her husband’s head completely from his body.
This sent the head of the man she loved go spinning through the air end over end. The blood that the heart had shortly before pumped into it now sprayed the red droplets liquid flying out in a pinwheel pattern as it made it way outward and then took the arched pathway to the ground. The soft thud like sound it made as it hit the earth barely registered with the woman as she watched her husband’s head now roll downhill and coming to a wobbling stop face up on the toe of her right shoe. The shock of the horrific sight held her glued in place totally forgetting for that critical moment as the ax welding dark figure made his was slowly down the hill toward her.
The woman wasn’t aware of the ax welding silhouette being at her side until she heard a swishing sound and felt the razor sharp blade kiss the soft skin of her neck. This was followed by a quick unbelievable rush of pain through her head as her spine was sliced and her head was severed from her body. Now it was her head that went flying leaving a red trail of blood as her now numb body stood headless for a moment before falling first to her knees then forward onto the ground. The result of this was to remove the barrier that had held her husband’s prisoner and one of her feet giving it a slight kick as she hit the ground and his head went rolling again down the hill pursuing hers.
The man’s head hit something in the road and took a slight turn sending it rolling off toward the side of the road and coming to rest again on the soft shoulder of the night blanketed asphalt. The woman’s rolled a little further down the thoroughfare before it too came to rest on the opposite side from her husband’s.
The lone ax welding man watched the two oblong objects roll down the hill and come to rest before he turned his attention back to the body of the woman. She had been pretty he thought. He noticed a couple of locks of her dark curly hair lying next to her body where they too had been severed from her head when the ax had made contact with her neck. A warm breeze caused one of them to slowly spin like the pin on a compass in a ninety degree turn with the end of the lock of hair now pointing downhill toward the woman’s head as if it were pointing in its direction. It almost reminded the man of an accusing finger pointing out what he had just done. If this had been an act of passion or some unforeseen act it might have had some affect on him. He only found it to be interesting.
The man continued to stare at the woman’s body as his mind processed what he had just done. Yes it had been a brutal and messy way to kill but he had enjoyed it. As he stood over the woman, or what was left of her a pleasant sensation traveled up his spine and then made a return trip back down coming to an enjoyable end in the abdominal area of his body.
He had just brutally killed two people tonight but he wasn’t through. He had been holding this in for years and tonight it had finally broken free in him. He had tried to fight it but no longer could. He wiped the edge of the ax on the woman’s clothes and turned to continue down the hill. No he wasn’t through. He had others he wanted to dispatch the same way he had this couple. He wanted to get as many in tonight before anyone knew what was happening because he had no doubt that he himself would be dead by this time tomorrow night. Yes before this night was over there would be more.
The scenario the doctor threw out when he asked me if I had nightmares; do you have nightmares of someone getting their head chopped off and it rolling downhill. Nope, I write about it.
There’s a new kid in town and it’s working to try and bring Independents together. I don’t know if it will help us any but I do know we need something. We’re fighting an uphill battle. I’ve been doing a lot of research into what is going on with distributors, independents, and the market for the past couple of weeks and it ain’t looking too good for us.
The distributors are going to highlight the works of the already established authors so even if your work is better no one is going to find it unless they are looking for you specifically and if people don’t know you they won’t be looking for you. If they haven’t read something of yours and they do happen to come across one of your books in their search the odds are extremely high they are just going to keep scrolling past you.
Because of this you’ve got a lot of people out there claiming they can help you if you hand them a lot of money but once they have the money you are left holding the bag. Just so you know if you don’t already, that bag is empty. Don’t believe me. Look inside. Do you see any cash in there? I didn’t think so.
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Will it help you, probably not but it certainly isn’t going to hurt you. What you share could help someone else and who knows what someone else shares may help you.
It is becoming harder and harder for the independent author to get their books out there. Even if you do the chances of you being able to sell the damn thing is nearly impossible.
Let’s start out with Createspace, unless you are planning on doing an audio CD or a DVD it has become useless. Paperbacks have been moved to Amazon and that means the ones you already might have had on Createspace. I found this out when I went to upload a new book and also found out that for the next ‘8’ weeks the books I did have on Createspace will not be available through anyone but Amazon. In my opinion that is just short of steeling my rights to my work since I opted for full distribution to every distributor. So if someone wanted to go to Barnes & Noble or any other outlet to get my books that option has been closed to them and me.
Let’s talk Lulu. If you don’t have an ISBN number they become the listed publisher of your work and they have the rights to control all bibliographic data regarding your work. Now I don’t know about you but for me one of the things that drew me to being independent, and yes the fact it is easier to get published, was the fact is that I had full control of my work. Of course I found out that’s not the actual case with any self-publishing company.
I have researched nearly every self-publishing company listed, especially the supposedly top ten, and to say that none of them seem to do a really great job is an understatement. From shoddy products to questionable issues with sales and payments the complaints run the list of bad things a company can do when it comes to your work. I’ve about come to the conclusion that if you truly want to be an independent author then you had better go out and buy all the equipment to print ad bind your books yourself and then set up your own store and sell your books there.
We all know that the best return for your work is an eBook but unless you have a million friends willing to buy the damn things then you’re not very likely to go very far with that either. Smashwords I have to say does the best it can but it also is a money based company and they are going to promote the books that have managed to have the number of buyers that makes it profitable for them. That’s not something they do to be asses, it’s just business. I do think they try to be as fair as they can to everyone who publishes with them but like I said unless you can get a whole lot of people to buy your books then you flapping in the wind.
Yes there is social media and I’ve used it, boy have I used it. I haven’t seen a lot of reward in that however. Yes there is the possibility that I’m just a lousy writer but to be honest, and I am being honest here, everyone who has read my books have said they were great. Yes more people have read them other than friends and family. Hey, I have one family member who doesn’t like my work and has made that abundantly clear. He told me I was no Steven King. Have you looked at me big brother? Do I look like Steven King, wait don’t answer that. If you were to tell me I did then I would be upset, really upset. I’m not saying that Steven King is unattractive it’s just that I’m female and as a female looking like Steven King is not something I would consider a good thing. Don’t think my husband would think so either. If by some chance Steven King ever does read this, hey man please don’t take offense to this because I think your adorable but as a man. A woman looking like you would be a horror story for her I promise.
As for my writing…I’m not trying to be the man. Who could be? Steven King is in a class all by himself and no one can compete with him and honestly I don’t want to even try. I write in my own style with my own ideas that come out of my own twisted mind. Yes it is twisted.
Anyway back to the real issues. I’m not saying give up, I’m certainly not. I am thinking about taking a little different route but I’m not quite ready to say what that is yet but if I do, and I will, I’ll let anyone who is interested know how that turns out.
Let’s face it, we all have one, mine has been today. It started out with my dear hubby having to go to the funeral of the sister of his first wife. Now why this should put me off I don’t know and I actually supported him going for the sake of my stepdaughters. Buddy even asked me to go with him but I didn’t think that would be appropriate. No I didn’t split up his first marriage but still…there are some things you just respect and imposing yourself somewhere that could cause discomfort to people who are grieving is just not done. But still, it put me off. Now if you’re thinking that him being around his first wife was the issue, it wasn’t. That dear poor lady passed many years ago. So this was just a matter of me being a baby about the whole thing.
From there it went to me deciding to go shopping and boy was that a mistake. First of all doing anything in this fair city, I use that description in a sarcastic manor, has become problematic at best. A lady my husband works with was on her way home from work the other night and thought her car ran over some large rocks only to get home and find out that her car was riddled with bullet holes. Fortunately the lady wasn’t hurt but only through the grace of God or pure dumb luck, whichever way you might choose to look at it. Personally I go with the grace of God. One poor lady got shot one night last week because she wouldn’t let this person break in front of her to go see an attraction. She survived thankfully but still she was shot.
Then there are the drivers here. Getting on the streets of this city and trying to get anywhere is like entering the world’s most dangerous demolition derby. The only rule when it comes to driving here is that there are no rules. Think I’m exaggerating? Come by and visit and then you can tell me if I’m exaggerating. The traffic was made worse not only by the Christmas shopping season but there were several major events today in town and God love the people visiting this town and I hope they all made it out without incident.
Wait that’s not quite how it went for one event. There was a big marathon here this morning that ended up having to be delayed a couple of hours due to the weather. If I tell you that the high reached the mid-seventies here you might think that was a good thing. Nope. It came with a mildly severe storm that kept people inside in the early morning hours.
Now let’s talk about that weather. The storms moved out by about nine thirty or ten o’clock this morning and the rest of the day was sunny and bright, boy was it bright. So back to the intelligent idea of me going shopping. Right off the bat I no more than made it to my car when I realized that what I was dressed in wasn’t going to work for the day. I had to turn around and come back in and change shirts because what I had on, and it wasn’t heavy by any means just long sleeves, was only going to make me miserable. I should have considered the bottom half of my attire as well. It was a day more for something of a shorter nature and sandals but I stuck with my leggings and low hung boots. OK I’m an idiot.
After a few short trips into a couple of stores and deciding that there was no way in hell I was going to stand in lines two miles long to check something out, I gave up.
At one point I called my hubby to see if he would be much longer and he didn’t answer his phone. Alright I get that the poor man probably had it turned down to keep from disturbing anyone so I sent him a message. After waiting for a short but what I considered a reasonable amount of time I made up my mind I was going to stop and get me something to eat, bring it home, crawl into something comfortable, and eat my meal in piece. I made up my mind what it was I wanted and after playing dodge cars with several idiots finally managed to make it to my restaurant of choice and made my order, got it, and headed back toward the house taking the long route around in order to stay out of the way of the crazies on the main streets. I had one quick stop to make on the way home and it was a quick one. Great almost done with this day from hell and when I got to the cashier the people in front of me suddenly decided that they had forgotten something and every one of them stepped away leaving me the only one in line. Finally something going my way. Then my phone rang.
“Hey honey, where are you?” Buddy asked in his most cheerful voice.
“I’m standing in a checkout line, where are you?” I have to say my voice was a bit hesitant.
“I’m at the house. Where do you want to go to eat?”
Are you f’n kidding me? Where do I want to go eat? I want to go home and stick my hand into this bag I just picked up and chow down on this lovely sub sandwich that I’ve been dreaming of for the past couple of days.
“You haven’t eaten?” I asked a little shortly.
“Oh I nibbled on a couple of things but I didn’t really eat anything to speak of.” He responded with his most innocent voice.
So I drive home toss the lovely sub in the fridge, which will be garbage by tomorrow, and headed out the door yet again to fight the bright evening sun, the traffic, and my now more than slightly irritated attitude only to hear from my dear sweet hubby…
“Oh I did have a barbecue at so-and-so’s house.” My hubby informs me as we pass a police officer in the middle of the street patting down someone and putting handcuffs on them. It’s a miracle that the officer didn’t hit a grand double at that point. Yes hubby still lives but I suggest he gives me a wide berth for the rest of the evening. Things could get ugly.
For those of you who may not know what this means it is pure crap. My books for at least eight weeks, I’m betting it will be longer, will not be available except on Amazon. I’m presently looking into other distributors to take my books to.
This is thrown a big monkey wrench into my work especially since I was getting ready to release Cold encounters on paperback today. I did get it release on Smashwords in an ebook. I’m thinking about taking some serious steps toward promoting my books and that means me going a whole new route. I’m fighting mad about this but I refuse to let Amazon or anyone else strong arm me. I’ve fought YouTube twice, taken on facebook, I have to trouble with doing so with Amazon. For those of you who are interested in supporting me if you do read eBooks please go to Smashwords.com and just type in Cathy Pace Matthews and help me fight back. By helping me maybe you can help others who are now finding themselves locked into something they didn’t sign up for.
Evidently the right hand at YouTube doesn’t know what the left hand is doing. They resolved my issue, so they think, and yet not everyone there is aware of this.
I just got an email from them that is a carbon copy of one I got on Monday asking for the URL for the video that these four companies have filed copyright claims to. Them asking for it the first time I didn’t have an issue with however I was insulted with them thinking I needed to be informed on how to do it. It reads as follows:
We need the URL for the video in question in order to proceed with your inquiry. Here are instructions for how to locate a video URL:
Just so there is no issue of copyright infringements here I declare this is directly copied from an email sent to me by YouTube, for the second time.
I had responded to the first one and sent them the URL and they came back with something like, ‘oh this issue has been resolved and should no longer be a problem. Yet here it is Wednesday and I just got a copy of the same email from them. Again I responded by sending them the URL and again requesting that they send me the material from these four companies that they claimed my intellectual property was stolen from. I’m quite sure I won’t get that but who knows maybe they will surprise me this time.
I am in the process of pursuing legal advice on this issue so we’ll see what happens. So far they haven’t slammed my Fight Back video, knock on wood, but I still expect to hear something from them in that regard. I can only hope.
Am I being a bitch? I don’t care. Do people think I should drop this? I don’t care. Am I mad? I’m laughing my ass off. Will they ultimately win? Probably but at least I know I didn’t back down. I’m going to continue to fight because it scares me that others don’t. YouTube holds that little black mark over your head like the Sword of Damocles. A larger company wants to claim your work then so be it. It’s unfair however that you don’t get to see the work of the person or company making the claim against you. Now some people have managed to dig into this but I haven’t and by damn I want to know what these companies have that resulted in their claims. One of them I’m not really too worried about, I don’t think. It was a sport wear manufacturer, from Finland I think. Now how anything that was in that excerpt from that book could passible infringe on anything that company has out there, especially when it is this particular excerpt, puzzles the hell out of me. The three other companies are production companies and when I say production I don’t think that needs to be explained. Those are the ones that do concern me in particular one that has very close ties to YouTube.
Here’s the kicker. I was actually going to close that video down because I had redone it to make it easier to read, I hope anyway, when I see the claim against it. Well that little baby is still up as well as the new version with the exact same material in it. Funny, so far no one has made a claim against that one, knock on wood. Oh wait maybe that’s it. The spacing between the lines. So I infringed on their copyright of space? Hey unless they have actually infringed on my intellectual property what else could it be?
As several of you know by now I'm locked into a battle with You Tube. This may not seem like a big deal to a lot of you but it is to those of us who have to deal with them from a certain angle. Most people when you talk about You Tube see it from the other side of things. You want to know how to do something, watch a movie, pull up your favorite music video, or watch one of their comedic skits they have on there you can and it’s different. You love them. Well outside of the commercials you have to sit through.
If you’re a large company or a big draw you get all the promotion you could want, even if you don’t need it, while the independent artist, regardless of what it is they do, is lucky if someone even finds their videos without specifically looking it up under our names and sometimes even that can be a challenge. It would be nice if it was done in a more equitable manor but life isn’t fair and most of us accept that. We get it even. We can only hope that one day we might make it to the first or even the twentieth video to pop up when someone randomly looks something up. For most of us that will never happen and again we get it. If I had a million dollars to drop on promotions I might make it to number fifty on the list but I wouldn’t even count on that. Since I don’t have that million to drop anyway it really doesn’t matter.
However when someone lays claim to your intellectual property and you’re expected, no made to feel intimidated, to accept it then that’s something altogether different. Four different companies have laid claim to the intellectual property in one of my videos. Always the same one. Then when you do have the guts to dispute the big money company’s claim, yes they have all been big money, they post it as pending while the owner of the copyright reviews it. The owner of the copyright? I am the damn owner of the copyright but I have to wait on someone else to come back and tell me yes or no on whether I get to keep my work. If they say no You Tube will block me using my own work and this other company can use it anyway they want and make money on it. If they want to push it far enough the two and a half pages they are claiming are theirs, out of my book of close to three hundred pages they can now sue me for any royalties I might have made from the sales of my book. That’s right, they can sue me.
You would be surprised at how many people are having to deal with this and are losing money to You Tube and Google with some of their practices. Yes I’m fighting back and I’m fighting dirty. Oh everything within legal parameters, but dirty.
So please continue to watch your shows, how tos, movies, music videos but remember there is another side to You Tube and Google. Those of us on the other side are losing money, our work, and having our honor, integrity, and creativity called into question. Please don’t take that wrong because I’m not calling you out for what you do just please understand that behind all the things you enjoy there are people fighting and losing a battle against large companies and no one is standing up for them. In a lot of cases they aren’t even standing up for themselves because they are afraid to and with reason. No one wants a black mark on their name and that is the ultimate threat that You Tube uses against you. If I get one, and I probably will, I will display it with pride because I will have gotten it for not backing down. I’m a fighter and I will not go quietly into that dark night.
I admit when someone pushes me too far, and it really has to be way too far, I tend to respond accordingly. Well I responded strongly. Here is the email I sent to Google aka You Tube.
For the fourth time someone has filed a copyright claim against the same video of mine. The fact that the first three, back in early 2017 backed off should have told you something when this one came up. The fact that I only discovered this claim because I went in to edit some of my videos was the only reason I found this it has really set me off. This one is from 2018 but beyond that I have no clue. Please tell me how four separate companies can lay claim to my work. That they have given me permission to use "my" intellectual property as long as I didn't make money off it but they could really lit me up.
This video is an excerpt from my book Blood Lines Family Ties. They are claiming my intellectual work. That the comment that is hanging out there now is "Your copyright dispute is currently being reviewed by the copyright owner. You'll receive a response within 30 days from when you filed the dispute." How the hell can you assume that it is their copyright? It belongs to me. I understand about how this all goes through some computer and it somehow matches things up but come on. Four companies on the same video. Get real. Also why is it that I don't get to see their work that I'm supposed to have copied? I want that information.
The last time I sat back and played by your rules but not this time. I've already started my campaign and come Monday I will be contacting my attorney. Pull me from You Tube and it will only add to the flame. I'm a sixty three year old woman and you are going to look pretty damn bad in the media picking on a poor little old lady and believe me I will use it. You have a lot of attorneys to fight things like this I'm sure but boy do people love it when a little old lady gets picked on by big companies. You are the ones to bring the money issue into this, not me. When you did you brought into question my royalties on any of the book Blood Lines Family Ties that I have sold or will sell.
Also I should tell you I can back up my claims in so many ways it will make your head spin. You might want to take a look at my latest video I posted. You can pull it but I suggest you don't. I'm not the only one you have pissed off by this and it is spreading everywhere and believe it or not there are other ways of spreading videos, messages, blogs, and any other number of things. One other thing, Emma the character in the excerpt, that's based on my daughter. You might not understand the significance of this but I do.
Oh Blood Lines Family Ties was published first on Smashwords in eBook form on 09-25-2015.
For the fourth time someone has filed a copyright claim against one of my videos on You Tube. Now the first three times this happened, three at one time, You Tube at least notified me of this. This time they didn’t.
Now this had nothing to do with images, soundtrack, hell the damn font I used, but these three companies files the claim against the written material from the excerpt of my book. First the fact that three separate companies filed a copyright claim against what amounted to two and a half pages of my book Blood Lines Family Ties should have set off bell and whistles. For You Tube that is. It definitely set off bells and whistles for me but of a different sort. Now this was in March of 2017.
Here it is November of 2018 and while I was doing some editing of some of my videos I found where another company had filed another claim against my work sometime this year but I was never notified. I was also informed through this notice that I’m seeing for the first time that the other company, Big Frame – Awesomenesstv, was being kind enough to allow me to go ahead and use it so long as I didn’t make money from it. Now they can attach commercial ads to it and make money all day long but I better not. I guess this means any books I’ve sold as a result of this video they can sue me for.
The first three companies that filed the claim against the video went away after I filed a dispute but this one is going to allow me to use my video. Understand something here, IT IS MY WORK, no one was standing over my shoulders when I wrote any of my books.
Here’s the kicker. You Tube has never shown me anything of any of these companies that have made claims against me so what is it of mine they are stealing? Can you tell me another way of looking at this? I’m open to it but I can only see this as some type of theft at this point. Think about this a minute. Four different companies claimed to have written what is in that excerpt. Add me to the mix and that is at least five people that had to have been there when it was written and that is only if there was one person from each of the four companies.
It actually gets worse. You Tube does everything it can to keep you from filing a dispute. I mean everything including barely veiled threats. You can have your video blocked all the way up to being barred from You Tube. Also if I hadn’t gone down deep to do some editing I would have never even known about this. This is what is listed in the deep editing part of You Tube right now.
“Your copyright dispute is currently being reviewed by the copyright owner. You'll receive a response within 30 days from when you filed the dispute.”
I am the copyright owner you assholes. I think I should be able to review what this company has that they claim they own. Anyway I’m turning it over to an attorney and if You Tube, Google, and Big Frame – Awesomenesstv want to go into court with an little old lady and have that one spread all over the press then go for it.
Oh here’s another little tidbit about this piece of work. I can take you from the exact spot from where this excerpt starts all the way to the place where it ends and as for Emma…well unless they can pull someone out of their ass that looks like my daughter who Emma is based on, and I want to see that one, I seriously doubt they can.
The part they claim is theirs.
“Why? Because of you Emma. I didn’t come looking for you, you came to me. If you had just continued walking out to me that day you wouldn’t be here and the connection between us would have ended. I wouldn’t have found out the things I have. Instead Taylor was there to rescue you and because of that the connection stayed in place and got stronger with each day. I’ve had you in my head ever since. I thought a little turnabout was far play don’t you agree?”
“So it’s been about killing me all along.” Emma now began to understand the terror he had been putting her through.
Allen let out a harsh almost demonic laugh. “Is that what you think my dear? Didn’t your boyfriend tell you what was happening? No Emma it hasn’t been about killing you in days. It’s been about you waking in me things that had died. Making me remember who I once was and what I had. You my smart little girl, figured that out already. You got the images of Nadine and her burnt corpse. You saw my children with the flesh burned from their bones. You saw what I did that helped start all this, you who have been screaming and crying and fretting over your mind being invaded all day. What the fuck do you think you did to me time and time and time again.”
Allen again glanced at Emma and pulled on her arm. The fires that burned in his eyes were growing larger and brighter by every second.
“This isn’t the first time you’ve made a trip like this in a truck is it. I like that word, truck. It makes it sound heavy and strong. It’s a good word for this thing. Anyway as I was saying this isn’t the first time for you. You took a scary ride in one last year and that almost didn’t turn out too well, did it? I promise you’re in for a treat this time. This won’t end well for you my dear or for anyone you love.” Allen felt Emma going limp and again he jerked her.
“Don’t you dare faint on me! I want you conscious for this whole little joy ride my love.” Allen spit the last part out as if it were a mouth full of venom.
So unless my name or the soundtrack which is listed for free to use on You Tubes website is what they are screaming about then I’m at a total loss. Oh this portion of the video was also the part that came into question the first time but at least the three companies has the good sense to split it up in portions.
Attached is the complete video. Oh I have since redone the video some months back because the book cover had changed as well as I wanted to make it where it ran a little smoother. Same written content but no one has tagged this one.
I’m attaching the original video so you can read the whole thing.
She was definitely a few pieces shy of a complete Erector Set.
"Nice equipment." said Alison.
"Don't I know it."
Would someone please make him stop excreting humanly body fluids?